Book1:TeDream-Maker (第17/166页)

movingandcut-throatworld．Hemused,"Idonotaskmuchoflife．Ionlywantthebaresties，enoughfoodtosurvive，tolivelifethewayIwant，freeasabirdtoroamwhereverIwillinthiswideworld，bearnoresponsibilitytoahustransflifeintothehighestspiritualsublimation．Idon’tcareaboutwhatothersthinkofme．Callmeastreetcatifyouwill．Ionlywanttodreammymagnifitdreamsunhampered．Iwillbesatisfiedtoekeoutalivingthisway，buttheeventsofthestfewdayshavebeengingrapidlylikeakaleidoscope，andnowIhaveawomanandahometogobackto.”Dimitrishookhishead．Thisnewlifemadehimfeelhedgedinbyitspressuresandresponsibilities．"No，thisisnotwhatIwant.”hethought，butMarianna’sloveandaffeatesolicitudewerethetiesthatpulledhisrelutfootstepstowardsherhouse.

    Marianna’stwo-bedroomhousewassituatedinacul-de-saiddle-cssresidentiarea，notfarfromthemainthhfare，quietbuteasilyaccessible．TheoutlihehouseuhemoonlightgaveDimitrianunfamiliarfeelingofwarmth，asenseofbelonginghehadneverfeltbefore．Hewentintothehouseanddrewbackallthecurtainsintheliving-roomtoletthemoonlightsurgeinandfillitwithhertranslucidbrilliance．Beingacedtodarkness，hedidnotturnonthelight，deemingitsacrilegioustospoilnature’spoeticbeauty．Hesatthereonthesofa，baskinginthemoonlightaasrexedasifhewassailingonanopensea.Hiseyesfellonanopeeronthecoffeetable．Unsciously，hepickeditupandlookedatit．

    "Ah，it’sfromItaly，Marianna’shometown.”HedidnotuandItalian，sohecouldheletter，buthewasfasatedbythepictureofamanandaboy．Themiddle-agedmanwasarustworthytypeofafellowandtheboywasabouteightornineyearsold,chubbyandcute．Atthatmoment，anotedroppedoutandDimitrigit，surpriseditwasinEnglish．Tohischagrin，hefounditwaswrittento"DearestMommy"telliheirimmiimmigrationtotheU.S.Theshortletterwassigned"Yoursonnyboy，David"．

    "OhmyGod！Marianna’smarried！Shehasahusbandandason!”Dimitriwasfullofself-nation．"IshouldhaveknownawomanofMarianna’sagecouldhoutafamily．Howstupidofmenottohaveasked．HowunfortunateofmetohavemetthewomanIloveonlytofindsheisanotherman’swife!”Hekwashisownover-simplisticcharacteratwaiookanotherlookatthetwoiosenseofremorse.Hehadwrohesesimple，trustingpeoplewhowouldneverhaveimaginedevenintheirwildestdreamthatMariannawaslivingwithanothermanandhavinganuninhibitedsexualretionshipwithhim．

    "WhatshallIdo?"heaskedhimselfdesperately．Histhoughtsthenturohisdreams．"WhatrighthaveItoexecuteIleensocruellyforadulterywhenIhavebeendoingthesamethingmyself?"Heseemedtobesailingaloheclearicywatertothepceofexecution．

    Inthedeadsilenlythesoundofoarshittierwasaudible．Hewalkedashoretowardsthetreeonthedesotehilndthebloodysefshedoncemorebeforehim.HeseemedtoseethetophalfofIleen’sbodyhangingfromthetreewhilethebottomhalfbelowthewaistybloodyandmaheground．"WhatIdotoremedythis?"heaskedhimself．ShewasoherarebeautiesinthisworldandIorderedhertobechoppedinhalf!"HehadastrongwishtomakereparationstoherandbringherbacktolifeagaioryoftheCreatioohismind，sohescoopedsomeofthebloodysoilfromthegroundandtookittothewater’sedge,wherehemixeditwithwaterandshapeditintotheformofawoman．Hewashesitant，notquitesureifitwouldwork，butheblewoni